I have always been the kind of gal that can handle just about any thing that is thrown my way, but lately I find that to be less then true!
My chosen field is caring for the sick of both the body and soul its not a job for the weak of heart nor stomach if you get my drift.
Now on to my story of woe, yuppers I have found myself on the outside looking in, looking into what is now my reality! My parents are aging no surprise there, what has taken me by surprise is how Ill-prepared I am! Oh mercy this is going to be a ride I was not buckled up for! Nope I was taken for a joy ride that is far from joyful!
It all started a few months ago when my dear mother started having some health issues, on to the E.R we went and into the hospital for a short stay, then into a rehab facility for physical therapy to help her regain her strength. This is when I found my self to be at a loss! That in it's self has taken me by surprise, I had that deer in the headlight look seven twenty four, I would say I want my mommy, but mommy dearest was in no position to assist me!
My parents have always been so strong, they weren't suppose to get sick and need me, no this isn't in the daughters handbook! Yet here I was caring for my aging mother who was now dependent on me, depending on me to pay her bills to feed her cat to take her library books back, and take out the trash not to mention winter is on its way which means; take the water hose off the spike-ts and put them away and take her air conditioner out of the window. Oh the countless things one must do before heading off to work!
Oh the joy of trying to hold down a full time job while running back and forth to the care center to either drop off the laundry or pick it up. I know this sounds like a lot of complaining. I want to paint you a picture yes indeed one that you may one day find yourself in if you haven't already tasted this bitter cup.
It was during this time that I realized I wasn't ready for this kind of parent child relationship, no this definitely was not part of the deal and it wasn't in the daughter handbook if it was I missed it! Oh I would so love cal-gone to take me far,far away, but then I would have to return and start all over again!
One of the ten commandments is to "Honor thy Mother and thy Father" no matter what shape they are in, weather it be in good health or bad "God didn't say to "Honor them when they are in their youth and able to care for themselves, no my darligs he meant for us to Honor them always' and that includes in sickness and health. Yeah this isn't only meant to be for wedding vows.
Even though I found myself in a situation I was not ready for or at least I didn't think I was,"God has been preparing me for this journey long ago when it became my chosen field to care for the sick. With every step that I take I know I don't go it alone "Christ is with me every step of the way and when I can't seem to take one more step I know it is then that "Christ carries me.
This ride is not for the faint of heart, buckling up is a must the ride is bumpy, and filled with many twists and turns.I am never sure what tomorrow will bring, but I don't spend my time worrying about it either, I only focus on one day at a time!
I may be on the outside looking in, but I get to look into the hearts of all the families of the many patients I have cared for in the past and I shall have a better understanding for the one's who will be placed in my loving care. What started out to be a tale of woe, has turned out to be a true blessing.
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Author: Victoria E. Miera
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